sasha_feather: the back of furiosa's head (furiosa: back of head)
Getting sick, getting poor

You cut back on your work hours because you’re sick. Your income drops, but it’s worth it for the extra rest. You know you aren’t getting better; you won’t ever get better.

You cut back on expenses little by little. You already don’t much like drinking alcohol or coffee, so the articles advising you to cut back on lattes or cocktails are lost on you.

You already buy most of your clothes from the thrift store. You stop using the coin-op dryer and hang your clothes on the line to air dry. It makes your shoulder hurt but saves you a few bucks in quarters. You dilute the laundry detergent with a little bit of water.

You share your Netflix and Hulu accounts. You stop paying for internet sites that you used to throw a few bucks at when you liked their service, like Dreamwidth and Flickr. They have free versions available.

You ask your parents for money, again, knowing how fortunate you are that they can help, and that you have a good relationship with them, and that they don't hold back financial support due to your queerness.

You run up your credit card buying gas. You think about taking the bus more, but the stops and starts make you nauseous. That’s not a new thing, not a chronic illness thing. The school bus made you nauseous as a kid. But it does seem worse now.

You stop working for a while because you get laid off, and anyways you need to take a break: you’re really sick. Sicker than you want to admit to anyone, even yourself. A while becomes a longer while.

Your main entertainment is the dog park (Permit: $32 / year), Netflix ($10/month), and reading fanfic and the internet (mostly free - wireless internet $21 for your share; electric bill $16 for your share). You use the library more and more for comics and the occasional movie.

You reluctantly go on food stamps. You notice yourself eating the heel of the loaf of bread, which you used to give to the dog because it was “all crust”.

You ask your friends for help paying your medical bills and other expenses. They come through, and you think about how fortunate you are.

You feel guilty.

You learn about anti-capitalism. You feel less guilty.

You learn about the emotional costs and structural sources of poverty. You begin to feel empowered.

You read about the Mortgage Interest Deduction in the New York Times Magazine. You get angry, and anger is fuel.

You stop and get a fucking ice cream cone.
sasha_feather: Cindi Mayweather (janelle monae) (Cindi Mayweather)
Saw this on Tumblr and posting it here as a writing / blogging challenge:

The Audre Lorde questionnaire to oneself.

1. what are the words you do not have yet? [Or, “for what do you not have words, yet?”]

2. What do you need to say? [list as many things as necessary]

3. What are the tyrannies you swallow day by day and attempt to make your own, until you will sicken and die of them, still in silence? [List as many as necessary today. Then write a new list tomorrow. And the day after.]

4 If we have been socialized to respect fear more than our own need for language, ask yourself: “What’s the worst that could happen to me if I tell this truth?” [so, answer this today. and everyday.]
sasha_feather: Retro-style poster of skier on pluto.   (Default)
A simple coin toss
But it landed on the edge
An infinite space
sasha_feather: Retro-style poster of skier on pluto.   (Default)
*I'm trying out lowering my topomax dose from 75 mg to 50.

*The weather is cooler thank goodness.

*I survived a large family gathering over Labor Day.

*I called Building inspection for city of Madison; a guy is coming tomorrow to look at the AC unit.

*Forgot to link it here-- I wrote a blog post at WordPress about working on anti-harassment for WisCon; in response to Jim Hine's io9 article. He RTed it so it got a fair number of hits!
https://accessthis.wordpress.com/2016/09/01/not-looking-away-a-follow-up-to-jim-hines-article/

*I'm reading a long DA:I fanfic called "Stuck in the Puzzle". I don't know this fandom at all, but the fic is really good so far.

*New photos of the dog:
https://www.flickr.com/photos/sasha_feather/
sasha_feather: Daredevil in a suit (Daredevil)
(I just couldn't resist that title)

rating Explicit
John McClane/Matt Farrell
Live Free or Die Hard
tags: age difference, daddy kink, dirty talk, phone sex, star trek references, Alien references, assholes in love, cross play, alternating POV, established relationship, cross dressing, pwp
warnings: none
Words: about 3700


At the AO3: http://archiveofourown.org/works/6288958
sasha_feather: by Such_heights (Dani Sense8)
Your jokes have brought you fortune and fame
but today you should be feeling some shame
if your punchline is "fat"
get off the damn mat
and come back when you've brought your A game.


CC commons licence, share and share alike, 2015
sasha_feather: cartoon charachter who has Syndrome (i have syndrome)
On Living Without a Diagnosis at FWD/Forward. Please leave me comments there or at Dreamwidth (if you want).
sasha_feather: Black, white, and red image of woman with futuristic helmet (Sci Fi Woman)
From the Edges to the Center: Disability, "Battlestar: Galactica", and Fan Fiction at Transformative Works and Cultures

Big thanks to those of you who helped me with this article, especially Alexis.

Better Microphone Use at Conventions: a report (reposted from access-fandom) at FWD/Forward

Thanks to Jesse for help with this one!
sasha_feather: Retro-style poster of skier on pluto.   (Default)
I wrote something!

Selective Mustism at FWD/Feminists with Disabilities

Feel free to comment there or at Dreamwidth or at the new facebook page (but don't use my real name if you know it!).
sasha_feather: Retro-style poster of skier on pluto.   (Default)
I want to talk a bit about barriers to speaking and writing. I'm not particularly fond of the term "writer's block" because what does that really mean? It's not very descriptive. I'm going to talk about things that might prevent us from writing and speaking, from expressing ourselves with words. I consider this emotional work, and emotional work can be very difficult and challenging, so I'm putting it under a cut.

Read more... )

I think that challenges, prompts, team writing, community support, conversation, all are ways of encouraging people to use their voices. But, if words aren't working out so well, I think that art, icons, vids, dance, singing, cooking, exercise, photos, stitching, crafting, and costuming are wonderful forms of self-expression.

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