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Nico and I started a rewatch of Dark Angel. I've seen this show through several times, but not in years. I also watched the commentaries. The day I bought the 1st season on DVD was the day after I'd finished reading "Harry Potter" #5, and I was so sad about Sirius dying that I needed something to cheer myself up. So, that would have been summer of 2003; I had just graduated college.

Watching this show in my mid-thirties is an entirely different experience. I feel like an adult.

We watched the first two episodes.
possible spoilers for a 14 year old show )
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TV:
Korra (Avatar: The Legend of Korra) - has PTSD and was poisoned
Dr. Kerry Weaver (ER) - uses an arm crutch
Jodi Lerner - Marlee Matlin's character on "The L Word" - Deaf
Brian Kinney (Queer as Folk) - testicular cancer
Ben (QaF) - HIV
Justin (QaF) - PTSD, brain damage
Thirteen (House) - Huntington's disease
Arizona Robbins on Grey's Anatomy - above knee amputee
David Fisher, Six Feet Under, PTSD.
Willow (BtVS) - Addiction
Annalise Keating (HtGAWM) - Addiction.
Thomas Barrow (Downton Abbey) - permanent hand injury

Films:
Margarita with Straw
The Way He Looks (about a blind gay kid)
Wilby Wonderful (film is partly about a suicidal man)
The Normal Heart (about HIV)
Philadelphia (HIV)
Longtime Companion (HIV)
Jeffrey (HIV)
HOLE (short film) - physical disabilities
Frida (about Frida Kahlo)

Books:
The Charioteer, Mary Renault - physcial disabilities
And the Band Played On (HIV)
The Line of Beauty (HIV)
A character in Nimona (physical disability)
Umegat and his partner in The Curse of Chalion (phyiscal disabilities/trauma)
John Granby -Temeraire series (missing hand, prostethic)

Other:
Deadpool - disfigured
The Iron Bull (DA:I) - uses a leg brace
Angels in America (HIV)
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stuff i did
--Had insomnia last night
--Went to humane society to volunteer. Had a good time.
--Went to dog park
--Bought groceries
--Exhaustion hit me like a brick and I slept for a couple of hours

Now I am still tired, but probably won't be able to sleep.

I forgot to mention earlier that my disability parking tag came in the mail about a week ago. This is a big milestone for me. I'm grateful to have it.

Here is another short film rec: An animated film about young love, "In a Heartbeat". Very sweet. No dialog.

https://youtu.be/2REkk9SCRn0
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A 15 minute short film about a disabled gay man. Has captions. Explicit content.

https://www.shortoftheweek.com/2017/05/30/hole/

(Film autoplays at link)
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The Keepers - Netflix documentary, 7 episodes. 2017.

This was rough, but riveting and thought provoking. A detailed investigation into the murder of a nun in 1969, this series focuses largely on women who were her students in high school (so they are in their 60s now). There is a lot of discussion of sex abuse in the Catholic church, some discussion of possible police corruption (or at least egregious incompetence), and a strong sense of the social consequences of violence. Recommended if you like true crime stories and can handle the discussions of abuse.

Masterminds - on Netflix. 2016. comedy.

This is good if you are in the mood for a silly comedy with some gross-out humor, and which is not mean, and not violent. Zach Galifinakis plays Dave, an armored car driver who gets manipulated into doing a robbery and stealing 17 million dollars. Also stars Owen Wilson, Kristen Wiig, Leslie Jones, and Kate McKinnon. Content note: guns go off, but no one is shot.
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Source Code. 2011, 93 min.

LOVED this and not sure why I hadn't seen it before. A science fiction thriller by the director of "Moon". Air Force pilot Colter Stevens (Jake Gyllenhaal) wakes up on a communter train not knowing where he is or what is going on. A woman is talking to him and calling him "Sean". He goes to the restroom, looks in the mirror, and sees someone else's face. Some similar themes to "Moon" about how technology can be used to exploit people.

Okja. Netflix, 2017.

I didn't like this; it seemed like a message move whose message was garbled. It's a science fiction movie with poor world building and the script needed a few more edits. Okja is a "super pig" being raised by a teenage girl in the mountains of Korea. The project is run by a corporation trying to create and market new meat products that are supposedly beneficial for the environment. From the beginning it didn't make sense: why would a food animal take 10 years to mature? That would be way too expensive and is completely unrealistic. Do some research if you're going to write about meat production.
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Free Reign: This is a kids/teens TV show about a teen girl who loves horses. It's ADORABLE. Zoe is about 15 or 16. She and her mom and her sister (age 10) are visiting family on an island in England for the summer. Next door there's a stable, and Zoe falls in love with a troubled horse named Raven. There are some soap opera elements to the show, and a boring love triangle element (two boys like Zoe, oh woe). But overall it's cute, funny, and well done. Zoe works with Raven to calm him down and get him rideable. Meanwhile she makes friends and starts investigating the theft of some local horses. Rosie (the younger sister), Zoe, and their mom are black; there is a South Asian character (Jade), and there are a bunch of teenage girls hanging out together and riding horses and having fun. There are 10 episodes, 25 minutes each. No warnings that I can think of.
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My dad and I went to "Baby Driver" in the theater. This is a mediocre action film directed by Edgar Wright, starring Kevin Spacey and Ansel Elgort. The first part of the film is better than the 2nd part, and features Baby showing off his incredible driving skills as a get-away driver for some bank robbers. He listens to music constantly and the best parts of the movie show how he matches his music to life. The 2nd part of the film got too much into gun violence and ridiculousness. But, there was some interesting disability content. Baby has tinnitus; his foster father is Deaf. They use ASL to communicate and they enjoy music together-- the Deaf character, Joe, feels the vibrations on speakers. Baby can also be viewed as an Autistic character, although I don't think this was intentional on the part of the film makers. There were a few traits that stood out: He has a couple of deep interests and is narrowly gifted (with driving and music). He barely speaks, and when trying to interact with people he sometimes quotes song lyrics and movies. He wears sunglasses most of the time (perhaps to avoid eye contact?). He also cares deeply about the people he loves, and he is not particularly emotionally expressive.

no totoro

Jun. 26th, 2017 08:35 pm
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Jesse and I went to go see "My Neighbor Totoro" at the theater. We get there and it's very nearly sold out; we get the last two tickets that someone was refunding. Neither of us are quite trained into the new system where you are supposed to always buy your tickets ahead of time, having lived our whole lives as spontaneous movie-goers.

I get some snacks and we settle into our seats. The movie starts, the cute song and the little girl walking. Soon we realize, we are seeing the Japanese version with no subtitles. Someone alerts the staff and the movie plays on. I'm happy to watch it this way-- the story is very simple and to me, not understanding the words only plays into the dream-like quality of Miyazaki movies. But not long into it, the movie pauses and the manager comes in, to apologize. He says that they got the wrong version, and they will be playing the English dubbed version. Some people in the audience object. My friend a row below us calls out for people to clap if they want the dubbed version vs. if they want the Japanese version. It's about evenly split.

Well, they must have decided to do the dubbed version because they stopped the film. We decided to leave and get our refund.

Anyways, that is our Totoro story!
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Personal bingo meme that people are playing on Twitter and elsewhere!

You can google "bingo card generator" and fill one out with your interests. Then you can use a photo editor to check off interests that you have too.

My card is also at Flickr:
https://flic.kr/p/VL1xcd

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I bought a used Xbox 360 at the thrift store a few months ago, which has opened up to me the world of gaming. My roommate and I have been enjoying Lego Harry Potter. We started with years 5-7 which I found in a bargain bin, and then moved on to years 1-4.

The game is easy for us to learn, whimsical and funny. It's just plain fun to run around Hogwarts and revisit the story. There are a few parts that are tricky / fussy, especially timed jumping. I realize that platform jumping is a gaming tradition going back to Frogger and Donkey Kong, but it is not friendly to people with arthritis or dexterity issues. I wish games would rely on it less, or have easy jumping modes. Last night I spent way too long trying to jump over a required barrier and got frustrated.

Lego HP requires little to no reading and no listening. Information is conveyed through pictures. So, you can play with the sound off and you don't need captions. There is one game aspect where it's helpful to distinguish red from green (Parseltongue cabinets), but not strictly required. The parts where you fight a "boss" (often at the end of levels) tend to be much easier with two players. This game can be played with one player, but seems designed for two players. Levels are not timed-sensitive-- in fact you're rewarded if you spend more time looking around and exploring. You can't save mid-level, though, so if your game freezes or you have to leave for some reason, you will have to replay that bit of the story.

For my roommate and I--we are novice newbie gamers-- Lego HP has been a really great entry point. I definitely recommend it.
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Two episodes this season really stood out, and they are episodes that do not focus on Dev.

"New York, I Love You": vignettes about 3 working-class black New Yorkers. A doorman in a fancy apartment building deals with the strange requests of the tenants he works for, and he talks with his co-workers. A Deaf woman finishes her shift as a clerk at a bodega, goes to have coffee with a friend, and later goes shopping with her husband. A Kenyan-American cabbie finishes his shift, takes a nap, and then tries to go clubbing with his friends. This snapshot into regular people's lives was funny and endearing, and shone a light on people who are often invisible in media. A beautiful episode.

"Thanksgiving": Denise and Dev growing up and having multiple Thanksgiving meals at her mother's house. Denise deals with coming out to her mom and later bringing girlfriends home. We see Denise's grandmother and aunt at each meal. Denise talks about how being gay in her black community is not widely accepted. A funny and moving episode, that again features people we don't normally get to see on TV. This episode stars many black women.

I also enjoyed "Religion": Dev struggles with lying about being non-religious to his extended family. At one poing, Dev and his cousin sneak out from a religious event to go to a barbecue and eat lots of pork together.

Episodes about how Dev struggles with dating and finding love bored me epically. I realize that Aziz Ansari finds this subject fascinating and wrote a whole book about it. But there are three whole episodes (out of 10!) focusing on Dev's love life: "First Date," "Amarsi Un Po", and "Buona Notte". yawn.
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Do you feel like re-distributing wealth?

Do you like giving money to poor people, directly, rather than through a charity?

Do you have some money burning a hole in your pocket?

You can give money to me at my paypal: sandphin@gmail.com

You can also support my friend kuwdora by taking a look at some art for sale!

http://kuwdora.dreamwidth.org/tag/%5Bart%5D:sale
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One of my highlights of WisCon 41 was the [community profile] wiscon_vidparty. There were 19 premieres, discussed at a panel the next day. Tweets of this panel in storify form:

https://storify.com/sasha_feather/wiscon-41-vid-party-discussion

There was also a new-to-me vid, Gloria by sweetestdrain, Sarah Connor Chronicles, that I absolutely adored:
https://sweetestdrain.dreamwidth.org/461948.html

What is amazing about the vidshow is the intense feeling of being in community and enjoying the vids together with people I love; being at a party but not having to socialize; and singing along with abandon. We were also in the biggest room this year!
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Having a weird mood crash. It helped to get out of the house and do things, so I picked up another shift at the humane society. Also: air conditioning. It was 85 degrees F today (29 C), which is hot for this early in the season, and I'm not used to it yet.

I dropped off some clothes at Good Will and went inside to admire their newly remodeled store.

Went to the dog park. Mostly sat on a bench in the shade, and eventually some of the regulars came by so I sat and listened to them chat. Ended up spending close to two hours at the park.

Watered some plants. It's time for this asparagus fern to get rehomed, because it just stabbed me in the finger with one of its thorns. Some of the other plants I have look a little rough from being newly placed outside.

Picked some strawberries from the back garden and am eating them right now!

I broke a glass today and a plate yesterday. Dropping things and not-quite-grasping things is one of those weird RA symptoms. I think my anxious/depressed mood is a combo of missing WisCon people and having inflammation and the hot weather.
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"Lazy Eye" (2016)

This is a somewhat slow, sweet film about two ex-lovers who reconnect over a weekend. They were together for a summer 15 years ago; now they meet in Joshua Tree at a small house. The landscapes are beautiful and the production values are high. The two are very loving and affectionate with each other. They reflect upon their lives and choices, and at the end of the weekend must decide where to go from here. It met what I was looking for: emotional, sexy, and with queer (this was sort of a typo but I'm leaving it). I got a bit impatient with the cheating story line (one of the two of them is cheating on his husband who is abroad), mostly because, sigh, why this tired trope? Why can't writers be more creative and interesting?

Content notes: animal harm/death (mice). cigarettes. Rich people. One person teasing/doubting another person's professed bisexuality. One character describes an anxiety attack in broad terms.
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Ways WisCon has changed from 31 to 41 (which are the years I've attended).

--Gained an Anti-Abuse Team
--Gained live captioning
--There's a vid party! [community profile] wiscon_vidparty
--More safer spaces
--More media/fandom panels
--A gaming track
--Many more people of color in attendance
--More people of color as Guest of honor (I wrote about this in 2015
at my Wordpress blog and will update the spreadsheet shortly.
--Pronoun stickers!
--Social Interaction badges (these are explained at my wordpress blog
Part one and part two and with pictures.

Those are just a few of the more obvious changes. I look forward to where WisCon is going in the next ten years! :D
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Nerve block #3 today. It went well.

The doctor had a resident with her again, and she explained everything she was doing. I think the combination of that and the fact that I had a vasovagal reaction last time, made me a little nervous. But I did OK and only had to lay there for a couple of minutes before I could get up and go. The whole thing was fast and pretty easy. I felt sort of euphoric; my pain lowered dramatically and it was easier to breathe. The resident said that my case was the most interesting one of the day.

I am waiting for the headache to come, the one that follows after the nerve block. My mouth hurts but so far, no terrible headache. I think it's just on the edge though. I bought a bunch of popsicles and plan to keep eating them.
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Getting sick, getting poor

You cut back on your work hours because you’re sick. Your income drops, but it’s worth it for the extra rest. You know you aren’t getting better; you won’t ever get better.

You cut back on expenses little by little. You already don’t much like drinking alcohol or coffee, so the articles advising you to cut back on lattes or cocktails are lost on you.

You already buy most of your clothes from the thrift store. You stop using the coin-op dryer and hang your clothes on the line to air dry. It makes your shoulder hurt but saves you a few bucks in quarters. You dilute the laundry detergent with a little bit of water.

You share your Netflix and Hulu accounts. You stop paying for internet sites that you used to throw a few bucks at when you liked their service, like Dreamwidth and Flickr. They have free versions available.

You ask your parents for money, again, knowing how fortunate you are that they can help, and that you have a good relationship with them, and that they don't hold back financial support due to your queerness.

You run up your credit card buying gas. You think about taking the bus more, but the stops and starts make you nauseous. That’s not a new thing, not a chronic illness thing. The school bus made you nauseous as a kid. But it does seem worse now.

You stop working for a while because you get laid off, and anyways you need to take a break: you’re really sick. Sicker than you want to admit to anyone, even yourself. A while becomes a longer while.

Your main entertainment is the dog park (Permit: $32 / year), Netflix ($10/month), and reading fanfic and the internet (mostly free - wireless internet $21 for your share; electric bill $16 for your share). You use the library more and more for comics and the occasional movie.

You reluctantly go on food stamps. You notice yourself eating the heel of the loaf of bread, which you used to give to the dog because it was “all crust”.

You ask your friends for help paying your medical bills and other expenses. They come through, and you think about how fortunate you are.

You feel guilty.

You learn about anti-capitalism. You feel less guilty.

You learn about the emotional costs and structural sources of poverty. You begin to feel empowered.

You read about the Mortgage Interest Deduction in the New York Times Magazine. You get angry, and anger is fuel.

You stop and get a fucking ice cream cone.
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At a local dog park the other day, I looked out at the rise and fall of the land. The oak savannah giving way to open farmland. The sun shining on dandelions' happy faces. I felt an expansive joy that landscapes and nature give to me; a sense of peace. Almost an aching kind of happiness.

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