OH, I'm so sorry this time has come, and so glad you've been able to enjoy the past few months.

My experience with at-the-vet euthenasia was 100% more horrible, as well. We're having luck squeezing liquid meds on to gummy white bread, which Lucy will eat even if she won't eat anything else. The other possibility is suppositories, but ...

Sending old-dog-snuggles your way.