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[personal profile] sasha_feather
Getting sick, getting poor

You cut back on your work hours because you’re sick. Your income drops, but it’s worth it for the extra rest. You know you aren’t getting better; you won’t ever get better.

You cut back on expenses little by little. You already don’t much like drinking alcohol or coffee, so the articles advising you to cut back on lattes or cocktails are lost on you.

You already buy most of your clothes from the thrift store. You stop using the coin-op dryer and hang your clothes on the line to air dry. It makes your shoulder hurt but saves you a few bucks in quarters. You dilute the laundry detergent with a little bit of water.

You share your Netflix and Hulu accounts. You stop paying for internet sites that you used to throw a few bucks at when you liked their service, like Dreamwidth and Flickr. They have free versions available.

You ask your parents for money, again, knowing how fortunate you are that they can help, and that you have a good relationship with them, and that they don't hold back financial support due to your queerness.

You run up your credit card buying gas. You think about taking the bus more, but the stops and starts make you nauseous. That’s not a new thing, not a chronic illness thing. The school bus made you nauseous as a kid. But it does seem worse now.

You stop working for a while because you get laid off, and anyways you need to take a break: you’re really sick. Sicker than you want to admit to anyone, even yourself. A while becomes a longer while.

Your main entertainment is the dog park (Permit: $32 / year), Netflix ($10/month), and reading fanfic and the internet (mostly free - wireless internet $21 for your share; electric bill $16 for your share). You use the library more and more for comics and the occasional movie.

You reluctantly go on food stamps. You notice yourself eating the heel of the loaf of bread, which you used to give to the dog because it was “all crust”.

You ask your friends for help paying your medical bills and other expenses. They come through, and you think about how fortunate you are.

You feel guilty.

You learn about anti-capitalism. You feel less guilty.

You learn about the emotional costs and structural sources of poverty. You begin to feel empowered.

You read about the Mortgage Interest Deduction in the New York Times Magazine. You get angry, and anger is fuel.

You stop and get a fucking ice cream cone.

Date: 2017-05-13 11:32 pm (UTC)
thingswithwings: dear teevee: I want to crawl inside you (a dude crawls inside a tv) (Default)
From: [personal profile] thingswithwings
This is beautiful and makes me angry too. I love you and I admire you and fuck capitalism.

Date: 2017-05-13 11:51 pm (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] isagel
<3 You have a way of putting things so poignantly. I admire you a lot.

Date: 2017-05-14 12:49 am (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] longwhitecoats
<3 Thank you for writing this. I'm reading and I hear you.

Date: 2017-05-14 02:22 am (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] jesse_the_k
Just so!


Date: 2017-05-14 02:23 am (UTC)
cantarina: donna noble in a paper crown, looking thoughtful (Default)
From: [personal profile] cantarina
This is so beautifully written. I hope that was a fucking good ice cream cone.

Date: 2017-05-14 02:56 am (UTC)
lilysea: Tree hugger (Tree hugger)
From: [personal profile] lilysea
<3 <3 <3

I remember being in pain because I didn't have money for my pain medication. (More than once.)

Date: 2017-05-14 07:49 am (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] falena
This is very powerful and so well-written! *hugs*

Date: 2017-05-14 01:49 pm (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] j00j
This is good and important. Thank you.
Enjoy the hell out of that ice cream.

Date: 2017-05-14 04:04 pm (UTC)
forests_of_fire: A picture of a brilliantly colored waterfall cascading into a river (Default)
From: [personal profile] forests_of_fire
Thank you for sharing this. <3

Date: 2017-05-14 04:29 pm (UTC)
subbes: an antifa symbol. (antifa)
From: [personal profile] subbes
dont let anyone tell you that you dont deserve that ice cream cone

Date: 2017-05-15 12:54 pm (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] tbonejenkins
Indeed. this was beautiful. And I hope your ice cream was delicious!

Date: 2017-05-15 06:40 pm (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] eos_joy
I hope you enjoyed the hell out of that fucking ice cream cone. <3

This is just perfect. Poignant and powerful and so clear. This is what my wife and I are going through, and we feel you, feel for you.

[Story Time: She's been in chronic pain for years (car accident ;__;) and a month ago she hurt her knee - same knee she had already torn her ACL 13 years previous. It's taken over a month to get an MRI, and they're scaring her because the results are taking longer than usual to get to us. To make matters worse, none of her three doctors (Primary Care, pain Management, Orthopedic surgeon) will prescribe her pain medication. We were already tight before - she hasn't worked since the injury and already the bills are adding up. It's not fair. It's frustrating. It's so upsetting.]

We shouldn't have to live with pain, or shame, or judgment, or have to make choices between food, pain, and electricity. It's ridiculous and inhumane. We've been doing what we can (signing petitions, writing letters, joining demonstrations) but it never feels like it's enough.

I'm sorry. I feel you. I'm sending you positive vibes.

Date: 2017-05-15 09:07 pm (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] tim
Solidarity. And yeah, eat ice cream.


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