sasha_feather | Don't run your engine out of oil (Reply)

Most beautiful weather here today; intensely blue skies, a crispness to the air that usually signifies Autumn. Frogs singing. I went for a walk up the hill which I am trying to do every day, for my mental / emotional health. I pick some apples off the tree to throw into the pasture for the sheep and the horse. I look for cool rocks. I take photos. Today this was the best part of my day. I also like talking on the phone or texting while walking around. I have a plastic chair up on the hill, by the water tank, which I put out there a while back, so I could sit and supervise the kids playing. Today I discovered a patch of self-seeded ("volunteer") decorative gourds growing in the feed lot.

We stayed home today. We did visit mom yesterday and she seemed ok. I am better off not visiting her, but have a hard time saying no. I don't mind driving down there once in a while (it's a beautiful trip), and the occasional visit to restock her clothes, etc, but I can't be going so often. It's weird how I can feel guilty for not doing enough, even while I'm doing all i possibly can.

I am feeling heavy and achy. A bit overwhelmed with the responsibilities of life. Chronic illness keeps kicking my ass.

I saw someone on Tumblr suggest, instead of "pouring from an empty cup", think "boiling an empty kettle," because, it's dangerous to boil an empty kettle. Similarly, instead of "out of gas" think "out of oil." This one might work better with my family of car guys.

Neighbor Karen brought us a peach pie tonight fresh from her oven!