Horses are good company -- The Witcher

1) What are you wearing right now?

Jeans, Keen sandals, a leather belt, and a teal colored t-shirt.

2) What would you rather be wearing right now?

I get to choose what I want to wear every day, so... not applicable? This is a benefit of disabled life or life outside of the capitalist grind. One does look for excuses to dress up upon occasion.

3) What is your favorite outfit of clothing that you currently own and wear?

Not so much an outfit perhaps but many individual items: My leather jackets, of which I have several. A soft green t-shirt from REI, a light-weight gray zip-up hoodie, and yoga pants. I have a long skirt I like a lot but it doesn't have pockets, woe. I have tall rubber boots with rainbow laces. Many of my favorite items are not great for hot weather.

4) What is your favorite outfit of clothing that you have ever worn?
When I was a smaller size (honestly probably underfed), it was a lot easier to find cool clothes for not very much money.
This one was "the adventure suit," a brownish skirt and zippered jacket. Brown leather patches adorned the top of the shoulders. It had pockets and the collar had a cool flare.



This outfit was a black pinstripe dress with cap sleeves, worn with a long grey jacket and black leather boots. It's a little bit dominatrix which is not really me, but it was fun to wear, and kind of cosplay that confidence.



Not pictured, a wool suit that I wore to a friend's wedding. The suit was a warm brown, maybe tweed?, and looked good with a maroon shirt and a tiger eye necklace-- my favorite colors. I briefly had some maroon-colored boots that I loved and wore with this outfit along with a flat cap, to guest speak at a class that Cabell taught.

I think I go for a slightly Star Trek uniform look in my fashion fantasies.

I am much fatter these days and all these clothes have been given away.

5) What was the last new or new-to-you garment you bought or acquired?

At a consignment store where my mom likes to shop, I got a navy no-iron blouse with an anchor motif. The anchors are small and white and I feel they reflect my recent fannish interest in pirates.

Thanks to thefridayfive for the questions.

Attempting to post more. Thinking about weight / size politics under the cut.

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This article better reflects how I feel than the last one:

Bitch magazine: Sized Up

Does this sound familiar? Remember psychiatry's attempts to cure homosexuality? Our culture's hand-wringing over the "obesity epidemic," its hawking of one breakthrough diet or miracle weight-loss product after another, and its moralistic shaming of those it deems "too fat" are as conducive to self-hatred as "gay conversion therapy." But while the harmful conversion therapy that religious conservatives practice on lgbtq people has rightly been the target of political protest and legal intervention, the medically sanctioned use of weight conversion therapy (a.k.a. dieting) has provoked far less outrage on the Left.

eta: don't read the comments

A bad ass character is laying in a hospital bed and is badly injured, but they refuse pain meds or are reluctant to take them because they want to "keep their mind clear."

Guess what? Pain clouds your mind also. Sometimes all you can think about is pain and nothing else. The meds make it so you can actually function to interact with the world in somewhat normal way.

I am probably preaching to the choir here, but just once I would like to see a bad ass warrior character in hospital who is accepting of pain medication.

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I seem to have this internal conversation with the world a lot; it goes something like this: "I know that I'm an outlier in a lot of ways, but seriously? Seriously?

One of the great things about fandom and the internet is that I can find the other outliers.

Here is a really great post about body and fat acceptance that I think can apply to anybody despite the title: Ten Rules for Fat Girls by Dianne Sylvan.

Disability talk for Cabell’s class

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Feedback on this is welcome.

Not! Actually! Filtered! As mystickeeper says, "This shit is gonna get real." Well maybe.

So I used some of my few spoons this week to go to the Michael Pollan lecture on campus. I haven't gotten around to actually finishing any his books yet, but I seem to have absorbed a lot of his ideas through reading articles and seeing interviews, and maybe just the cultural zietgiest. I went with a bunch of friends. antarcticlust and I were whispering furiously and annoying the guy in front of us; yes-- I was being That Guy! Going to the Special Hell for talking in the Theater! Well, the hockey arena, in this case. Antarcticlust took notes. There were people there in t-shirts that said "In Defense of Farming", apparently as a protest, and we talked about that some. The t-shirts were the same color as the volunteer t-shirts, which we thought was Quite Interesting, since it seems to assume a defensive position--as in, they are trying to blend in and not be tossed out. But we also thought it was brave of them for coming and protesting, even if we thought it was misguided (see below).

Michael Pollan seems to like discourse, controversy, and arguing--he does not seem at all threatened by disagreement and does not seem to get ruffled. I kind of envy this trait-- it shows great security and patience and humor, I think, and also an equivocal mind that is willing to considering other points of view. He addressed the protesters and said he agreed with their slogan: "Eat food, be healthy, thank a farmer," or some such. He said he thinks farmers hold the key to 3 crises facing America: the health crisis, the energy crisis, and the environmental crisis. (At "environment," antarcticlust inhaled and mouthed "no".) Pollan is very pro-farmer in many ways-- what he is against is big agri-business. The most damning moment was when he said that the American food industry made over 800 billion dollars last year, and less than 10% of that went to farmers. A greater share went to people who make packaging for processed foods.

Pollan is an engaging and clear speaker. I liked a lot of what he had to say. He talked a lot about "the rise of nutritionism", how that benefits processed foods (and businesses) and how it contributes to moralistic eating. Since we can't sense nutrients, we must rely on experts to tell us how to eat. He compared this to a type of religion where if you can't sense God, you must rely on a priesthood to tell you God's will. Then there are "good nutrients" (calcium, fiber, beta-carotene), and "evil nutrients" (carbs, cholesterol, trans fats, saturated fat, etc), and we are looking for these instead of eating food. Also we are chasing after health (good or bad) with each meal, instead of eating for pleasure or community or other reasons.

He and many other people have gone after "high fructose corn syrup" because it's a marker for highly processed foods. But now savvy marketers have found a way around that: by advertising their products as having "real cane sugar". They are marketing their products by saying, Look! SUGAR! Which is bizarre.

He talked of many other things but that is what stands out for me.

On twitter @ThatKarenB said, "Was anyone protesting Pollan's attitudes towards fat people? AFAICT, that's more accurate than the "anti-farming" thing."

Which I think is a good point, and I am going to talk about that now.

I would say it's not Pollan's attitudes precisely, but that he is uncritically adopting the wider cultural attitude of fatness as a disease. Several times he said that the Western diet is responsible for "heart disease, Type II diabetes, and obesity."

I have been thinking and thinking about this, and I need to think about it some more, because it's complicated and it makes me uncomfortable. One thing that helps me is reading Kate Harding: Don't You Realize Fat is Unhealthy?

Also I think it's weird to pathologize a body type. Diseases are socially constructed; what is and is not a disease is not so easy to say. And I think it's weird to say that being fat is a disease. I think it's OK to say that some things associated with being fat are diseases, that being fat might make you more likely to have certain diseases, but even then you should remember that it is not a one-to-one situation and does not apply to everyone: it's only true at the population level, and association does not necessarily imply causation, either. It is more complicated than that!

It's a false equivalancy: people like to think that being fat means being unhealthy, automatically. They like to think that being thin (but not too thin!) means good health. Well guess what, that is not always the case either. It's more complicated!

I'm not sure if Pollan would even disagree with me on these things. It's just that I want there to be less hatred of fatness and bodies, and I think his agenda (which I think is a good one) and mine can coexist. I've also been thinking about intersectionality with disability, since there is this fundamental concept of not assuming that disabled people need or want to be fixed. ("But surely-- surely being disabled is bad? Wouldn't you be fixed if you could be? Wouldn't you be thin if you could be?") (Say it with me: it's more complicated!)

Just things I'm thinking about. I'm aware not everyone will agree with me here.

ETA: there are some great comments at LJ!